Facing Your Fears

The Holy Spirit has been speaking to me about the fact of this Blog site. Specifically that it’s been sitting “post-less” for nearly a year. Sure, I’ve been sick, but not that sick. Sure, Mom moved in with me and then she got sick. Truly, she was very ill and I spent every minute with her. However, I could have posted “something”.

So, I’ve been Praying about it. I believe God orders my steps, so I am trusting Him to use this space for His Glory.

God has a sense of humor. As I was in personal worship with Him this morning, I was singing, “This is the day The Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it”. As I sang the word rejoice, I saw it in my spirit as “Re-Joyce”. I immediately came to attention, kinda, sorta, giggling. Way back in 1990, I had a Dear friend who had cancer. I wrote her letters daily hoping to inspire, uplift, to support her through the evil disease that was attacking her. Sadly, she passed. Or, joyfully, depending whose eyes you are discerning this through, she is Home with Jesus!

Re-Joyce was God’s way of reminding me that a few days before this, somewhere in the chaos of my clutter, I had come across the letters I had written to Joyce back in 1990. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I am once again praying for a woman named Joyce who has been diagnosed with cancer.

Re-Joyce-ing is going back through the letters I wrote in 1990 and re-learning those lessons I wrote about, to my friend Joyce. The first letter in the stack was about “Facing Your Fears”.

Good place to start!

Satan has been trying to get me into a place of fear. Again! When the fear didn’t overwhelm me through my own health issues, my Mom got sick. That was, at first, terrifying! When I would come to this site and try to write, my old insecurities would return, so yes, I have been fighting a different type of fear than those I had in 1990 but there are situations in my life that could easily cause me to fear, “IF” I let them.

It’s pretty cool that just last night I listened to Pastor John Gray preach from his book, “Faith Your Fear”! I love that!

When I turned 65 in 2017, I was forced to change Physicians for insurance purposes. I loved my Doctor! I had been his patient for over 30 years! I was in a position where I didn’t really have a choice. I transferred to the Dr. that my Mom had been seeing for several years. The morning of my first appointment I was very stressed. My body was betraying me. I couldn’t walk right, and my speech was nearly unintelligible. My face contorted with different twitches that I couldn’t control. As I prayed before I left for the appointment, I heard the still small voice in my spirit whisper, Faith conquers Fear. When I got to the clinic, the nurse that called me back to the exam room was wearing a tee shirt with the words, Faith over Fear. My fear and stress left me instantly. At my next visit, one of the office staff members gave me her shirt.  

Me and my Faith over Fear shirt!

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1

More Rejoicing while Re-Joyce-ing about fear to follow next time!